Date: 2008-07-19 13:11 Subject: I'm yours... . . . . Security: Public

This verse reminds me of you Tiff!

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Date: 2008-05-06 23:43 Subject: pretty underfuckinappreciated Security: Public

that's how i feel at the moment.

Date: 2008-02-16 23:00 Subject: here's the list Security: Public Mood: awake

I had a very interesting chat with my mom tonight. It was strange. I made some comment about my angst and she said something that felt like she had looked right in to the depths of my heart and pulled out the very fundamentals of my being. Sorry Tiff, sorry Brad, I've never had anyone know me so well. All she said was this. "You're a fierce girl. You're a fighter and you want it all."
It shook me. It was truly an epiphany to feel like she 'got' me. It made me think of all the things I want.

I wanna get sweaty
I wanna get bloody
I wanna move
I wanna get a little crazy
I wanna play
I want revenge
I want candy
I wanna dance
I wanna be surrounded by those wonderful people again
I want to able live off my art
I want to find things out
I want a big drink of water
I want to run
I want other people to stop caring about the fat on my body.
I really want to dance
I want to never stop dancing
I want strength
I want to pass these ideals on to others
I want to change the world.. at least for the people I care about
I want an upbeat tempo
I want to climb
I want to tumble
I want to try
I want to fall
I want to shrug it off
I want to kiss everyone
I want the truth
I want bad things to stop happening to good people
I want to swim
I want to slide
I want to fly
I want to wrap it all around me
I want to see you
I want to free women
I want to make music
I really really do want it all.

Date: 2006-12-21 16:25 Subject: WTF?!? Security: Public Mood: does irate work here?

So last night was the That's Entertainment staff party. I was a little apprehensive about going because I don't really have any friends there. except Brad. I get along fine with Dan and Taylor and just recently Laura, but other than that I'm pretty sure the other people there don't really like me much. Well I figured that last night would have been a good way to start being pals.
At one point in the evening I sit next to Natasha on the couch and she mentions that feels like she knows me very well. Apparently Brad talks about me at work. oh and he talks about our sex life. great. so now these people who don't even like me know what I'm like in bed. It's kind of hard knowing that they like Brad better and they know these things about me. I'm trying really hard not to be hurt after this. I mean they must be thinking " So THAT'S why he's going out with her"

Date: 2006-07-02 16:26 Subject: where's the comment button gone? Security: Public Mood: sympathetic Music: trapeze swinger...iron and wine

AWWW Mika baby! I couldn't find the comment thing so I'm going to use my entire entry page to tell you that I'm feeling for you. aaaugh don't know what else to tell you really..... . . . . . . . . so here have a hug *hugs*

Date: 2006-05-02 00:35 Subject: Mmmmmmmmm..... Security: Public Mood: bouncy Music: Officer Girl!

Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.
Todays episode of Absenth-minded LJ is brught to you by the numbers 6 and 3 and by the letter 'M'

1. Milk..the first word that came to me..it's late I've been drinking.
2. This one is a two for one shot.Mannaz. Only the most superfly girl I know.Mikata. My rock, my car song buddy.
3. Midnight. When the good times started.
4. Mmm..the title of my slow song cd.Awesome.
5. Muscle. Good to have.
6. Make out. Good to do.
7. Montreal. I can't believe it took me this long to think of that word.
8. MT. I don't know if he knows I know that nickname, but I do and he's special.
9. Mom. I'm so glad that we're close now.
10.Music. Some songs just reach out and punch me in the face. Sometimes while wearing a velvet glove.
And I'm spent.

Date: 2006-04-30 22:37 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

oh god. have you ever experienced hopeless despair? oh god. what am I gonna do? I have never felt so absolutely alone. I can't go like this. I lost it all. god.

Date: 2006-03-08 12:57 Subject: Woot! Security: Public Mood: content Music: my chemical romance Tags: whats the worst thing i could say?

I think today is going to be a good day... yes for me the day is just starting.
I have all my homework done and I 'm going to class in a bit. But for my big stupendous news...I found my knife!!! I'm so happy. I have to go to work which will take away from my essay writing time but it will give me money! I also got an email from luke yesterday. chee. he has to use pay computers still..they have no phone or internet connection chez leurs. I can't wait to see him again. um...Harry Potter something. me I'm not so good at these journal things. Well. Well. Well. now for another word for the day thanks to my japanese 101 textbook : kumo. yay!

so long and good night